Welcome to A Tendency.
This is a place to cease the fight against sadness, since struggling in many situations can make things more knotted than untied. This is a place to embrace and accept how you are, to fall to pieces, fall apart, dissolve and flow and eddy once more; to gather together in this depression with me. This is a place to think about deeply what and why we think we are and to not shy from the potential meaninglessness of this corporeal life. To give it your best thought and accept life as more open-ended than closed.
Who wants to read a story they know the end of anyways?
When you are at end and sea, contemplating the experience you find so painful, attend and see your fears before you submerse yourself back into the ocean of force all around us. Before you give into the dark tide of thoughts that have become a tendency in you, make of these last moments an exploration and you will find you have joy enough to move on for a lifetime.
To quit the analogies and be clear: this is a mental wellness resource. Here you will find ways to redirect the psychic static of suicidal ideation and deconstruct the logical arguments for it. Hopefully some of my life-long tunneling into the madness in myself will save you some time and trouble.
Whether you are in a shit spot in your existence or you are too smart for your own good and see no point in living . . . I argue there is little difference then in killing yourself now vs. dying later, so breathe and keep on, my friend. You may find a place to spend your life’s currency later along the way.
Here we suss out the susurrus of insults your mind directs your way. We go slow, tweaking the program with thought formulas until self-damage and damage to others is limited. We float in a sea of existence instead of drowning in it. And it’s pretty nice.
Ahoy and enjoy!
-A